To Whom It May Concern,

So I'm thinking of running away.

Well maybe not anytime soon and maybe not completely running away like most people think "running away" means. Most likely I will run away after I graduate from court reporting school. I plan on running off to someplace that I desire. Most likely for two weeks and then coming back home to start my new job. So see, I wouldn't be completely running away. And who knows, maybe I will get the guts to run off to New York for a week before ending my schooling....

I feel like I haven't done anything great in my life. And by the word "great" I mean just drop what I'm doing to go off someplace. I feel like I need it to be happy. I feel like this place will help fill in all the gaps. Gaps of what...I'm not sure...it's just...I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something else here on earth. I see these images of places and I want to cry because I can't feel the cool breeze or...touch the flowers that are growing nearby or...smell the essence of what God created for us.

I don't feel like I was supposed to be confined to this house, to that school room, to this city, to this state! And definitely not to this country. I guess it all comes down to responsibility really. I have a responsibility to get a career, a responsibility to do my job, a responsibility to my mom to leave the house...but what responsibility do I have to myself? A responsibility to be independent? No...because for me, that'll be easy.

So what other responsibility do I have to myself? Don't I have the responsibility to make myself happy...to...surround myself with love, affection, peace, and above all, the things I desire? Although, getting myself surrounded by millions of dollars isn't in my book of reality...but DOING the things I desire, are. If there was ever a moment in my life where I was truly daydreaming, it would have had to been today. Yet the thoughts that I had were very real and so in a way, can come true. This urning in my heart and mind grew very strong today and I hope I can find the strength to keep it going. As everything else in life, I will have to wait and work for it. But I will always keep in mind that my desires are and should always be...I will, I am and I have.

Love,

Me